mag;

2007-08-22T07:59:00.000-07:00

*clenching my fists and picks up a knife*

roar, jamie drew on my ear and neck
i had a hard time cleaning it off
cos she drew a smiley face inside -.-
SOMEONE PLS SMACK HER NOW

& she say when she have something popping out,
she wash face and it will be gone.
*squeeze jamie's throat*
now, slap her for saying that :X

alright, now i forget what to write
oh ya oh ya,
did i say this?

I HAVE GOT A GUITAR! :D
*zehzeh*

and this is to scare amanda
AMANDA MY AH SHUI, I LOVE YOU <3
lol. i bet she's like having a heart attack and gasping for breath when she reads this.
someone pls buy me a mc, i want to have a wonderful sleep until tml :/

i just felt that he is so shallow, scheming, cunning, what a hypocrite! what is done cannot be undone and he cant make up the loss
neither can he fill this gap again
he will never break us apart.

random;

♥ stella
not what you think, i love her as a friend.

yeah she's saving for our trip to msia
and i have not even started
ahh, gna save save save
yay! shopping trip tgth
whoo~ ♥♥ yeah.

2007-08-17T06:27:00.000-07:00

'But God' by Phil Pringle

i want this book ah great! (:

& here's a beautiful song:

Verse 1
God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o’er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this altar I’ve written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

Chorus
God of my forever
And forever I’m with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King

Verse 2
God of my all I’ve surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You’re here with me
In the end just to hear You say “Well done”
Bowing before Your throne

Bridge
Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

2007-08-08T06:26:00.000-07:00

Hope is found Christ Divine
All my past i've left behind
Let Your glory shine
All i've gained i counted lost
I press on to Your higher call
I long to know You more

This is the hour
I can feel Your power

Destiny, calling out to me?
Closer God to thee
Destiny, my eternity
God in heaven, You're all i need

Holy,holy
God almighty
Let the whole world sing
Glory,Glory
Jesus, You shall reign

Felt so vexed & tired lately,
Time to shop alone, shall make it maybe on Friday?
I know its weird, but it helps me relax & think more deeply.
yeah, I may be alone but I'm definitely not lonely.
God is with me (:
& I BADLY NEED SLEEP!

2007-08-01T20:15:00.000-07:00

i am such a light bulb
& i've got the biggest la, taitai charlene
lalala :p

yeah i was woken up by xl's call
& xl said i must be missing that monkey
ah nooo

alright, xl's coming to my house tml
gotta do some packing up
my house is in a mess.

oh yeah, i screwed my bio practical
& my failed attempt to do smth while playing vball ):

2007-07-31T18:49:00.000-07:00



You say you don't know me
You say you don't owe me
You say that you won't be, happy waiting
You think that you're worth it
You think you deserve it
You want it all right now, your way

Together we're one
(there is no finish line)
Together we're one
(why don't you realize)
Together we're one
(I know that everything's gonna be fine, together)
Together we're one

One in a million
Don't be afraid, don't say
It can't play out the way that we want
It's gonna be brilliant
Like it or leave it I can't help but feel like
I'm one, one in a million
I'm worth all the crap that I'm putting you through
I'll be blunt, the honest truth is
Like it or love it or LEAVE IT

You decide, you decide
Don't waste my time
Sit back and unwind now
It's gonna be fine now
You can't justify your
Impatience

Together we're one
(there is no finish line)
Together we're one
(why don't you realize)
Together we're one
(I know that everything's gonna be fine, together)
Together we're one

One in a million
Don't be afraid, don't say
It can't play out the way that we want
It's gonna be brilliant
Like it or leave it I can't help but feel like
I'm one, one in a million
I'm worth all the crap that I'm putting you through
I'll be blunt, the honest truth is
Like it or love it or.. LEAVE IT

What was that line in that one movie?
When he looked at her like it would last forever
Said to her face that he'd do whatever it took
To be her love above all what he wanted most
Credits rolled. Curtains closed.
Then you whispered in my ear
Together we're one in a million (Don't be afraid)
Together we're one in a million (Don't be afraid)

Together we're one

One in a million
Don't be afraid, don't say
It can't play out the way that we want
It's gonna be brilliant
Like it or leave it I can't help but feel like
I'm one, one in a million
I'm worth all the crap that I'm putting you through
I'll be blunt, the honest truth is
Like it or love it or
Leave it

You decide, you decide
Don't waste my time
You decide, you decide
Leave it

yeah, i felt so relieved today
told my taitai,charlene what i dont like about her today
& she said that she wont do it cos i dont like it
haha my dear taitai, love you! :D

2007-07-31T18:40:00.000-07:00

ohyeah, i love the SRP thing today

Desiderata - Max Ehrmann
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

what a lovely poem right?
alright im off for pizzaaaaa :D

2007-07-30T07:44:00.000-07:00

Jesus at Your name we bow the knees
Jesus at Your name we bow the knees
Jesus at Your name we bow the knees
And acknowledge You as king

You are the Christ
You are the King
Through Your spirit in our lives
We know who You are

Bila kubuka mataku (When I open my eyes)
Dan lihat wajahMu (And look at Your face)
Ku terka gum (I am amazed)

Bila kulihat hidupku (When I look at my life)
dan karya tanganMu (And all the works of Your hand)
Ku tersan Jung (I am honored)

Kar'na semua yang baik (Because all good things)
dalam hidupku (In my life)
Itulah karya Mu (They are Your wondrous works)
Kau b'ri'k sempatan yang baru (You give a brand new chance)

Dan ku ingin mengenalMu, Tulhan (And I want to know you, God)
Lebih dalam dari s'mua yang kukenal (Deeper than all that I have known before)
Tiada kasih yang melebihiMu (There is no greater love than Yours)
Ku ada untuk menjadi penyembahMu (I am here to be Your worshipper)

Deliverance yesterday was tremendous, great and everything nice.
I thank God for His everlasting love, His forgiveness.
for being my comforter, refuge and help.
Lord, You're my everything.

yeahhhhh, talk to Charlene alot during the free period.
whoo <3
yay! click 8+charlene+yuqian are doing to bake cake,cookie
cool! :D
& went hl's house today.
whhee made sushi & jellies
yuqian made lychee jelly, stella;strawberry
and mine, of course almond jelly!
almond jelly is the nicest!!

we watched John Tucker must die
nice nice! ha
oh yeah, stella is nice!
she was like so motherly
i had no money left for the whole week
so she paid for food
and she forced me to eat.
the cashier asked if i wan to upsize
thn i was like no,
thn stella just yes
haha kuku. BUT SHE'S NICE! <3
when i get back my money,
im gonna treat her to newyork

oh where was I?
ok, met up with chinho at je aft tt
he said my jelly was very nice.
haha of course.
i am good at doing everything x)

2007-07-29T07:53:00.001-07:00

i wanna get this album! :D
yeah, cool! *hints*

2007-07-29T07:41:00.000-07:00

the voice was great! :D
yeah, everyone sang so well!

ahh, i blinked! ):

w398 :D
da mei nu! X)

& had donuts again.
donuts on friday and saturday
great! i love chocolate donuts.

♥donuts~
♥donutfactory!

2007-07-26T21:33:00.000-07:00

late for school today.
ahh its so unfair lah!
school had nation anthem at 7.22am le?
of course we become late le lah.

anyway i'm living happily with my hair
because mrs ong says my hair is neat
& mr ng told stella to cut her frinch like mine
well, i guess im neat xD

but the problem is
i look like a mushroom with this hair
ah i miss my hairrrrrrr :(

random; i just realised that mr ng look like bobdog
haha cool :D

2007-07-22T07:20:00.000-07:00

oh yeah, on Friday
i had chocolate buffet at Fullerton Hotel, the Courtyard
with my family & L
i got sick of the chocolate taste after eating a slice of cake
its so chocolaty
& there a range of chocolate cakes to choose
chocolate puddings, grape soup, different kind of chocolate drinks
and of course the chocolate fondue.
ah the fountain is so cool, its like all filled with chocolate
after indulging in such chocolaty stuffs,
i couldn't take it anymore
in the end, i took fruits without coating it with chocolate
FRUITS ARE STILL THE BEST.
i think they are my favorite food, healthy eh (:

PICS

indulgence
Sisters <3
short hair kinda rocks [:

2007-07-21T08:54:00.000-07:00

CUT HAIR WITH JAMIE AT SANDSTORM.
ahhh! i miss my hair ):
regret cutting it short boo

i look like an apple/mushroom now
its totally like my sec1 hairstyle can
but its shorter
yeah,concave bob

i will never cut short hair again.
ah i wonder how long it will take to grow back my hair
short hair really kills my confidence man,
i feel like im going back to sec1

ahh
i love my old hair. please come back to me ):
wherefore art thou hair~

yeah im gonna drag stella to cut too :p

PICS

2007-07-19T19:03:00.000-07:00

YAY! I AM EARLY FOR SCHOOL TODAY :D
met jamie & waited for hl
thn go sch met stella
and mjs were called to edmundng again
and he gave us this 'Student Monitoring Form'
so we have to let teacher the form when we attend the lesson
and we have the 'Remarks' column whereby teacher can write about our behavior and attitude
edmundng said that if there is any negative remarks,
we will be immediately suspended from school
And this monitoring is going to last for 1month

great,
latecoming = truancy = monitoring.
woah. :O

wah, if got teacher follow us everywhere
better still.
like bodyguard like that.
walk also got 'feng' ar. haha jkjk :P

anyway i told my mum about it
and she was laughing away
because she said that i am really 'ya jian zui li'
then i say the monitoring thing
and she said that edmundng must have been so angry by my comment
that he went home and kept thinking how to punish me
and he came out with this monitoring thing.
then she say she want complain to MOE,
because edmundng made us miss lessons.
haha, my mum is cute lah (:

2007-07-18T23:08:00.000-07:00

late today.
got caught by edmundng
and he forced mjs to write truancy form
hello? we are late, not playing truancy?

this is what i wrote in the 'prevent this from happening again'
since im always late because of not being able to get into the bus,
i shall push people to get in lor :D
isnt that great?
then i dont care about my friends,
wooo leave them alone,
just myself myself,
go school without being late,
let my friend zi shen zi mian
great right? i never late what?

and i got reprimanded and accused of saying that edmundng taught me.
i was self-reflecting,
and the 'you' refers to the incident or my own self-conscious, duh.
isn't it?

& we had to miss lessons because of that
im really angry especially when i couldnt take my maths test
i had studied for it and in the end,
my efforts went into the drain.

it really killed my passion to study k.
forget ittttttttttttttttttt

then i had study group
at first didnt feel like going, dont feel like studying or working hard anymore
after that i thought, nono, im going to move on for God
then i went and i did maths
Xiaowei and Xueli taught me
and i asked Xueli to teach me Bearings,
which edmundng taught today.
yeah, i still got to learn lala

after that
Xueli,Zack, me went to eat banmee
yummyyyyyy
& we met Lava at jp
as he wanted to treat us to a meal.
we played truth or dare in courts
and xueli had to put her head into a vase
wahaha

ok shall end here.
im off to study bio and sleep. tata

Thank God, for the friends he placed in my life.
Thanks for the encouragement, care and concern. <3

2007-07-17T20:21:00.000-07:00

Every heartbeat says
Thank you Jesus
How You gave Your life
For my Salvation
Gaze at the rainbow
I see Your love

Every heartbeat says
Thank you Jesus
How You gave Your life
For my Salvation
Gaze at the rainbow
I see Your love

I will look to You
Night and day
Sing of Your great name
How i live again
By Your grace
I see You face to face

You are love of my life
My refuge always by my side
Forever i will sing
And i worship You my King
You are the one i adore
I give You my heart and my all
Forever You are all i need
Lord You're here with me

-----------------------------------

ah!edmund ng confiscate my PSP
@#(*!$^!
not fair..
I merely listened to music during RECESS
& he confiscate it just because he got unreasonably angry
because somebody out there ,who has no guts to admit, wrote on the door.

forget it,
edmundng say that if i pass my test tml,
then i would get it back.
& i doubt i will pass
whatever.
my mum was quite alright with it.
she said that edmundng is trying to motivate me -.-
fineeeeeeeeeee

anyway today jamie,stella,me
were late for school.
then miss seto called us the ah-lians of class
rawr. thats so not true.
hahaaaaaa she called jamie the most ahlian one.
wahahaha
told ya jamie, u ahlian :P

2007-07-15T22:14:00.000-07:00

went to town wif jamie, stella & yulin
saw xiaowei, gladys, joann too
we had lunch at KFC
& we started shooting ice at each other.
ha funny, i jus cant shoot the ice out

so we shopped from taka, paragon to far east
my leg is so pain ):
hav been out since 7am
& i walked rounds and rounds.
ouch!

yay! i bought my bag
Thank God, its cheap [:
aft tt they went to catch Harry Potter,
then i went off to Heeren
to find xueli & lava.

we didnt really shop,
just went into a few shops.
& we laughed like crazy
at the mrt & the stations

PICS :D

blah, i know im zi lian :(

p.s i want to get Ed Hardy jeans & SKIN shirts/dresses *hinthint*

2007-07-14T02:06:00.000-07:00

yippee!
went to amk hub with bro, mum & L
to catch harry potter and the order of phoenix
its fabulous! Love it!
The effects are still as great as ever and i just love the storyline
Its a must-catch movie :D

after that we went to upper thomson road
for pratas! yummy!

yeah, i just kinda miss going out with family.
i realised i have really been so busy
that i dont spend time with them.
well, i guess i should leave some time for them too.

im going to cut my hair soon.
i was thinking if i should cut short.
my family thinks that it is definitely not a good idea,
but having to tie plaits every single day is a hassle.

i need a break
sometimes i need the space to breathe,
to really relax, enjoy the peace & solitude
and reflect and think through things
i miss the times where i can shop around alone
but somehow, i cant find time anymore.
exams are around the corner
i wished that time could stop for awhile

2007-07-12T07:04:00.000-07:00

I sing a love song to you Lord
Every day every night
Tell of Your goodness and mercy
Tell the world how You rescued me
Picked me up from sin and shame
Your breath gives me new life

Where can i go from Your presence
Under Your wings i take refuge
Your Spirit lives within my heart
I know we'll never be apart

Every day i draw closer to you Lord
I long to see Your face
And hide in Your embrace
All my life
Dwelling in Your holy place
My heart o Lord You've changed
I'll never be the same

yeah, i was almost late today.
argh! im like late every single day.
I hate it, but i can't help
whenever the alarm rings,
i just turn it off and go back to sleep.
When i go to school,
in my mind i keep thinking that
im not gong to fall asleep, im going to focus on my studies
However, during lessons,
I dont know why i have such low energy,
i would feel tired and
after awhile, doze off.

Had study group just now.
Looking at the rest; joycelyn, tingting, zack, xueli
they are really trying their best
working really hard for their coming exams.
I then thought about what i have been doing during lessons.
Either sleeping, talking or playing games.
what am i doing?

Sometimes i dont feel like going school,
i just want a break.
a long long sleep to replenish my energy
and go back to school again.
But I don't have the time to really slow down and rest awhile.

I really want to study and get great results.
But, i need the strength & energy.

Lord, You are all i need.
Where can i go from Your presence?

2007-07-10T05:41:00.000-07:00

Sighs,
I pon literature lesson yesterday & english lesson today.
Felt really bad, i ought to have more discipline. :(

Alright, nothing much.
I LOVE CHEMISTRY SPA,
Of course its not because of Sabrina.
Its fun and everything
And time just flies.

After school, meet up with Joycelyn
We had ThePizzaPlace for lunch.
The soup is creamy, however the rest were still ok.
After that we went to PizzaHut
And talked to Faiza.
Then Macdonalds to do our homework.
After which, we went to walk around.
And we walked pass Sandstorm a few times,
Because there was a shuai ge there.
Haha, just kidding.

2007-07-08T07:37:00.000-07:00

Matthew 6:31-34
"Therefore do not worry, saying, "What shall we eat? What shall we drink?" or "What shall we wear?". For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need of these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

amen!
i felt really touched and blessed by the Lord today.

this was what happened;
lava,xueli and I were rlly rlly hungry and tired back then,
we have travelled from expo to tampines to pasir ris to jurong east
so after finding for so long, i managed to get cheap contact lens
finally, we had time to eat
but none of us have money, im left with only $5
so me and xueli wanted chicken rice,
lava wanted to eat but didnt have the money
so i approached the stall owner,which was a lady
and i asked her how much does it cost to order a small plate of chicken & 3 plates of rice
so she said $7.50
then awhile later she asked, so how? Is $7.50 ok?
then we said that we only had $5
so the lady then said nvm, she treat us and made 3 sets with us just paying $5.
Praise the Lord! Hallelujah! (:

Do visit her stall, its around the CPF building,
known as "Hong Heng Boneless Chicken Rice",
not only is she nice, the chicken rice was delicious!

2007-07-05T23:53:00.000-07:00

changed skin.
just being random and thought of summer.

school reopens,
& its just so sad :(
no more sleeping till the afternoon
no more playing
its all work work and more work.

aft mass dance & maths remedial tdy,
stella, jamie & me
went to had lunch at pizzahut
yumyum! we all had beef lasagne.
& we kinda chit-chatted;~~gossips~~ & stuffs
oops,haha!